The Journals of Doctor Mormeck (Mountain)–Entry #27
Jeff VanderMeer • November 30th, 2011 • Journals of MormeckThanks again for keeping up with my serialized novel The Journals of Doctor Mormeck. I’ve now topped 52,000 words. For those who haven’t been following along, the story before the three latest entries can be found here and the most current entries can be found in the archive.
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There is a battle on this planet, between the arctic army with its ghost whales and the European interlopers, that marks the culmination of the time-loop, after which as I have described, all recedes to the beginning of the conflict, reset as if solely for the angels’ entertainment. The clash of cultures and weapons occurs again, generals and underlings performing their alloted roles like actors in a play.
But at this point, this battle before the Renewal, as I call it sometimes, it’s almost as if the Grim Lighthouse is there, in the background, and if it were a sentient being it would be snickering at the destruction it has wrought. For surely even if it is not the cause, it gains sustenance from such a spectacle? It’s just a mental construct, I suppose, an intellectual exercise to while away the re-born hours as I surveil, and one that makes me feel as if there is some link between this place and my beloved Marty, that by spying on this increasingly barren landscape, these dying men, I am somehow by some not yet understood process standing beside her, or at least somehow present, wraith-like, in her life.
This battle, which goes nameless because of the re-set, is stranger than anything that comes before it, because the Europeans unveil a weapon that causes true harm to the ghost whales: a flat, angled canon made out of a shiny black metal that fires something more akin to a gout of flame than a cannon ball. These gouts of flame shoot out like miniature comets with a great frictionless bellowing and cut great ungodly tears in the ghost whales. There is no process of attrition as with the Europeans’ other weapons, and so as beneath the whales the two sides founder through cold marsh and ghastly forest, fighting hand-to-hand, running calmly to positions to take aim and fire, to reduce another’s skull to a fragmented mass of brain and bone with some limp skin whispering around the edges…the ghost whales sound out their agony, the comets taking out enormous pieces of them so that they are more empty spaces than ectoplasmic flesh…and at a certain point the whale can no longer maintain its shape, and somewhere in the backlines the handler shrieks, blood explodes from their brain, and the whale dissolves…and in dissolving, into globules that flicker green-and-blue, it becomes in essence a series of plummeting wraith-bombs. Splashed by one as it hits rocks or earth below, engulfed by one, men of either side see things they were not meant to see. For the arctic army, these are at least visions they know of from stories and legends. For the Europeans, it is a horrifying other-ness their brains cannot comprehend, and the haunting take a physical toll, until their flesh is translucent and they are stumbling around, blind and screaming, sometimes all that remains visible, for awhile, is a leg and foot or a head displaying the most terrible rictus of pain and fear. (This is why I evoke the Grim Lighthouse: these soldiers become what I would call localized versions of the Grim Lighthouse, with no illumination to lead them past the shoals.)
It is horrible to watch, but when you have been on surveillance for the time-loop twenty or even thirty times, you grow accustomed to it, as you would almost anything. Is that a human trait or a living mountain trait? I have no way of knowing.
So I took in my disgusting and inappropriate boredom to following the path of each floating whale-drop as it slipped from the disintegrating body and splashed to the earth. It was as if there might be some mystery to be solved just in examining one tiny element of the battle in detail.
And there was, although it did not reveal itself to me until yesterday. For on following one living bomb at the very, very end of the time-loop, I saw it dislodge a pebble as it fell harmless, and that pebble touched another, and for an almost imperceptible moment I saw a kind of temporal fault-line, something that used the natural lines of its environment with such sinister cleverness that it might as well have just been the erosion of the stones, the sharp lines of the blades of grass. But it wasn’t. It was something else. Something that I think holds the answer to the time-loop. Something that I think explains why the time-loop concerns the angels.
I haven’t told Gabriel. I want to watch it again, and again, to be sure, and do some research in the library. To know what I’m watching.
Or who I am watching.
Or what might be watching me.















Award-winning writer Jeff VanderMeer's final novel in his Ambergris Cycle, Finch, has just been published in the the UK from Atlantic's Corvus imprint. His writer guide Booklife and associated Booklifenow website focus on sustainable creativity. Forthcoming books include The Thackery T. Lambshead Cabinet of Curiosities and The Steampunk Bible. His short fiction has appeared in Conjunctions, Library of America's American Fantastic Tales, and several year's best anthologies. He writes nonfiction for The Washington Post Book World, Omnivoracious, The New York Times Book Review, the B&N Review, and many others. If you like the blog, please consider